Bandhan – Part 22

The thought of her agreeing to marriage, seeing her in ceremony, thought of her going to be someone else’s and her two times saying she is doing on her own will filled maan’s heart again and again in pain.

 Geet did not know what to do in this alien house, not even knowing who it belongs and then Chote Takur is so angry, not answering. She somehow wanted to calm down his anger.   Geet quietly went to find kitchen. She was soon standing in front of Maan with glass of water. Maan kept the glass and looked intently at Geet. He was somewhere lost in his thought or he was not in his sense but his eyes were so fixed at Geet that it made Geet feel ice running down her spine. 

Maan got up with his eyes fixed on her, Geet looked down, he stepped forward towards her and scared Geet took step backward. He slowly kept moving forward and she backward. Next her back hit the wall but Maan kept moving forward and soon she was captured by his hands on both side of her on wall. 

Maan’s breath was heavy and falling on Geet’s shoulder. Geet felt dizzy with Chote Thakur’s closeness. She tightly held sides of her sari. Maan was not in his senses at all. He knew she was his, no, not coz of all he had done for her but because of their friendship, her eyes looking for him always,  her acts all the time when he was with her, her restlessness for him, everything have told him this. He just knew she was his and he already belonged to her. 

Suddenly Maan brought his forehead on hers, his hands came down and entangled with her. Geet gasped, lost all control over her own self, she closed her eyes and then went into complete different world. It was more beautiful than dream for her. She wished she die after this dream coz she could no let this happen in reality; she could not betray her Chote Thakur. Even thinking of taking that place in his life is sin for her. 

Maan started tracing his nose tip along her face, he was trying to find solace, trying to believe she was his only and Geet’s greedy heart could not open her eyes to face reality, she was drowning in her dream which was getting even beautiful. Geet’s heart started racing as his fingers started tracing her hands upward. There was uncontrollable desire flowing and Geet knew she was wrong in feeling so. 

His touches were divine for her, she could never think he was wrong but her heart beating this way for him was wrong. Yeh galat hai, her mind warned her but before she could gather guts to speak Maan took her to another level of passion, he placed soft kiss on her closed eye lids. Her heart was not letting her stop him, yeh galat hai, her mind warned again but she was too weak to speak against what she was feeling. Her knees were melting… and then as Maan started placing soft kisses all over her face, she knew she has to stop her self. How could she do this yeh galat hai her mind warned strongly, she has to break and then  as Maan just touched her lips with his, she reached a level to fight with her heart and words of her mind came loud on her lips 

“Yeh galat hai, yeh sab galat hai” and hearing this Maan immedaitly stopped, turned and left to the backyard of the house. Geet’s every act was suddenly getting shocking these days. Yeah he went ahead today but only because he felt he was sure of her feelings for him. He was finding solace in her, he was trying to subside his pain and anger in her and he was going to confess to her. 

But now what, she finds his touch wrong. Have he been reading her feelings wrongly all this while? Was it that he loved her and thus he had convinced himself by her acts that she had same feeling for him? But he was not convinced. Maan was confused. He will never force himself on her if she has no feelings for him but for first time he was in pain for himself and not for her. His life looked empty to him, it was actually nothing without her. Since he has brought her in Delhi, his thought process has just gone for her, he could now not imagine of a life without her. He knew he was empty without her in his life. 

The only thought that she in any case will not be in his life killed him to no end. What will he do now? But he will not do anything against her will. Did she love any one or was she really marrying out of her wish and he forced her to come back? He was all confused and he could just see blackness. 

Geet was herself confused with everything and thus only wanted to calm his anger first. She knew she was only making him upset by her all deeds. So when he came back he found Geet standing with same glass of water for him. 

He did not know what to do; he just picked the glass, looked at her and not knowing what to do just threw the glass with water on the floor and unconsciously walked over the broken pieces which mercilessly went inside his feet, hurting him. He loved this pain and just kept walking. 

“Chote Thakur” Geet cried loudly catching his wrist. Maan removed her hand “I can take care of myself. Akhir zindagee to akele hee jinee hain.” 

“Please sit down for once” she pleaded, almost begging and he somehow could not deny her plead. He just kept sitting there while she nursed him, tears flowing down her eyes seeing his wound. One glass piece had gone little deep and took Geet tons of courage and tear drops to get it out while Maan was sitting ideally still in his shocked state. “It went inside me, it should hurt me, why are you crying“

 Geet looked at him “How can you think your pain won’t hurt me?” she asked accusingly 

“Why should it? What’s our relation? ” Geet then without a word kept doing his wound. She knew he was upset and angry and then her last words, those were never for him. It was her own her heart. 

Geet was about to turn and leave when he held her hand “is there someone in your life” She turned and looked at him shocked, how he could even think that way. She quietly left from there; he was upset and could say anything. 

But later Geet kept thinking about his acts and words. Is he thinking about their relation in the direction she fears most. No, not in any case she can think of taking that position. He was her guardian, mentor and way up the level. He had done everything in her growing up, then how can she think that way for him. 

Geet went looking for him, he was again in backyard “There is someone in my life, you guessed it right.” 

But Maan knew her little too well. The way she was shocked that time and the way she came and abruptly confirmed it, he knew she was lying. But why? Why is she lying so much to him today? 

It was almost night, Geet was not understanding why they were in this house, whose house was it and on top of it Maan was not talking. But no doubt, the house was so beautiful and warm, exactly the way she would dream. She had tried asking few times but he preferred keeping quiet.

 Geet heard sound from the kitchen. Maan was doing something there. She immediately rushed “Chote Thakur, what are you doing, I am here na“ 

“What is his name? ” came an unexpected question. Geet suddenly went a step backward 

“does it take so long to remember name of such important person in your life. Or is he not so important? ” he said not looking at her and doing his cooking. 

Geet looked here and there to figure out some name “yeah yeah, his name is Manish” she said abruptly. 

Maan smiled to himself. Geet came forward “what are you doing here in kitchen? I will do it all“ 

Maan moved with his injured leg to take some box “you can cook for your Manish, I am fine doing things on my own.” It hit Geet hard and specially the way he walked with his injured leg. 

“Please chote Thakur, you are hurt.” Geet tried to get him out. Maan tauntingly yet smilingly looked at her. He raised his hand on her cheeks and softly rubbed his fingers on her face. Geet closed her eyes and took deep breath. It was such a Devine feeling to feel his touch. Maan did not miss her reaction to his touch.  

“Keep these concerns for your Manish” Geet immediately opened her eyes hearing this.

 When he was over taking out his anger on cooking, he got out of kitchen and it was then Geet went ahead and did proper cooking.

Bandhan – Part 23